I put my dog up for adoption and cried. I literally am home to sleep. Poor thing deserved better. I saw her picture today on the adoption website. She looks happy . She is always happy. She doesn’t care who you are. She just loves. I want to be a dog sometimes. They are completely neutral and love unconditionally. I struggle with feeling guilty for giving her up for adoption. I just am not home enough to love on and care for her the way she deserves. But I will always love her, and miss her terribly.

 

I am fighting back tears writing this. But I know she’ll find a home with a large bed, and someone who will love on her as much, if not more than I did. I do.

Sappy dog post aside.

What do we do when our feelings of self-doubt, shame.. those self-deprecating thoughts out weigh the truth about who we are?

 

Well, theoretically , we are able to replace the negative thoughts and feelings with the truth.

This is the part of counseling that gets annoying for people, and if I am being honest, it annoys me too.

Sometimes our current moment feels painful. Sometimes our current experience is that our mind is telling us all the horrible things about ourselves. Sometimes it’s not all sunshine and rainbows.

And that is okay.

 

This is where being mindful of our current experience, and all of its feeling , sensing and understanding, and realizing that though, it may be painful or dark, it will pass. We are not always sad, we are not always happy, we move through experiences and they are not everlasting.

The problem comes when we dwell, and fixate on our experience. When we do not allow the experience to pass naturally, it becomes a big scary monster who gains control and power over our lives. But that is okay too… just as we allow each moment to pass, we can always choose to re focus, let the moment or experience that we have been dwelling on and fixating on go, and take steps to continue to practice neutrality.

Right now , I miss my dog. And that’s okay.

 

Where are you at? Are you showing yourself compassion for what you are experiencing?

 

Be encouraged,

Rachael