I think I have written about mindfulness a lot. But I’m going to do it again. Ok? Ok.

I have mentioned before, that for a long time, I believed that everything I thought or felt was absolute truth. Because of this, I was left feeling very trapped , confused and just done with life. If this was all there was, I was over it and wanted no part of it. I would hear people say, “This will pass, ” “Just believe in yourself.” ‘Get thicker skin.”

And The anger and rage would just grow deeper and my heart harder.

What the crap was I missing? Obviously I was unfit for life and missing some simple step.

The hard thing is, This was not the case, and will not be the case. But my reality was telling me different so I had fully bought into the story my mind was telling me.

Very simply, when I began to intentionally look at what was hanging out in my mind, the thoughts, feelings and experiences, without judgement or wishing they were different: The pain I was experiencing eased up. Do I still have areas in my life where I can grow in mindfulness and acceptance? For sure. But I can see the growth and I am thankful.

I know the experience of not being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know the experience that grabbing on to the thought that you are not enough, unworthy or lacking drags you through. I know the feeling of distrust and skepticism  that comes when someone tells you that you can experience a different reality.

But I also know the freedom that comes when you actually do begin to experience something different. 

One of my favorite Mindfulness exercises is this one: Its called mountain meditation.  Fair warning, I got it from YouTube.

Try it if you’d like. Let me know your thoughts.

Be encouraged ,

Rachael