Seriously. She is the weirdest dog ever. But I love her.

Have you ever laid your whole story out for everyone to hear? Scariest shit ever.

I am working a retreat, and giving a talk on worthiness. Funny how, when you are healing, everything seems to work together and run together and is connected in your healing.

It is important that, in sharing out stories, and the parts that are painful, and we hold close to home: That we are wise in who we share with , and when we share.

If we don’t ever share, we are missing out on connection and relationship. But, if we share too early: Before we are ready, we risk re wounding ourselves and causing harm. But, if we find people who honor where we are, and hold our stories as valuable and honorable, then the outcome is beautiful , and we are able to experience wonderful things in this thing called life.

I have spent the majority of my life isolating myself because I was afraid something might go wrong, I might get rejected and people wouldn’t like me.

I believed  I didn’t have anything to offer.

One of the catalysts for change in me was when I understood ( and it took a while ) that I don’t get to choose whether or not people want to get to know me. 

I believed that because I didn’t want to be around myself, because I didn’t like myself, then that meant that no one wanted to be around me. But I don’t get to decide that.

I honestly still feel a little pushback within myself when I think about this. 

But that is all it is. Is pushback. I don’t have to act on it.

Put yourself out there. With safe people. And if you are unsure if the people around you  are safe, ask yourself these questions:

Do I feel seen and known when around them?

Can I be myself?

Do they honor my pain ?

Do I enjoy their friendship, Why?

If not, Why?

Get connected. You’re worth it. 

 

 

Be encouraged,

Rachael