You know those moments on roller coasters where you are on- climbing to the top… and it pauses for a second right before it drops you to what feels like your impending death?
That’s my dramatic way of describing the part where you lose your stomach and a sudden rush of panic, fear and anticipation set in .
I Hate It.
I don’t like the feeling. I don’t want to experience it , and it’s not fun at all to me.
This is the same feeling some may get when they begin taking steps toward healing.
Seriously- after you make initial contact with a counselor , or a friend or mentor and decide you want to discuss something you’ve kept to yourself- you begin to have buyers remorse.
Shoot- what am I doing?
I want off- get me off.
Maybe they’ll forget I scheduled with them.
It’s not that bad… I don’t really need to talk .
Right? We’ve all been there.
The tough thing is – in order to get through things- we must experience them . Once you’re on the roller coaster- you’re really there until you get to the end. See, we can resist our current experience- or we can breathe and move with it. It doesn’t make it any less painful.
And I promise- if the person you’re opening up to truly values you- they’re honored you’ve chosen to share with them. And specifically- if it’s a counselor, they’re not going to go into panic mode. They’ll remain calm and open and help you talk through your experience.
What is keeping you from healing?
Be encouraged,
Rachael