Someone asked me the other day If I would rather spend a few months looking directly at something painful, or spend the rest of my life going over it in my head.

My honest response?

I’d rather spend the rest of my life going over it in my head.

Why?

Because my mind is telling me that its safe inside. If I let it out .. then it will be unsafe and painful.

Truth?

Its painful inside and its painful outside. That won’t change. But what will change is this: If we keep our stuff hidden, and in the dark, it grows and causes suffering for a long period of time.

If we look directly at something for a short period of time, the pain only lasts for a little while.

So, what do I do?

I make a choice to deal with it once and for all. No matter the anxiety it causes. Because continuing to play the tape over and over in my head is doing no good. My stubbornness is no longer working for me.

But… what if…

Sometimes The best answer is.. what if nothing. Sometimes the best response is a dose of reality. Look, either you continue down a road of suffering, or you call a spade a spade.. deal with it , and get free.

Sometimes its really that simple. 

But in the end , the choice is yours. And wherever you are is okay. Just know that our choices are the core reason we find ourselves in our current situation. Whether we got here on our own accord or by someone else’s choices. What we think about and believe after the fact is up to us. 

What tape is playing in your mind?

Is it causing suffering or bringing joy?

What are you going to do about it?

Now excuse me while I go surrender to the process and admit they are right. . 

Be encouraged,

Rachael