via Daily Prompt: Record

Did you know that you can probably come up with a song based on any word your friends say? I love doing that. It annoys people.. but its fun.

 

Did you also know that I fight anxiety attacks when anyone asks me to tell them my story? Well now you know. I do. I am not sure why really, maybe it’s because a persons story is so.. well.. personal.

I figured this out.. that this was a thing, in about 2011. Seriously. I got baptized again, and before we got baptized , my church had us sit in front of a camera while they recorded us telling our story as to why we were getting baptized. I literally felt like I was going to pass out.

Funny thing is, what I was sharing wasn’t even very deep.

I do better when I write blogs. Mostly because there is something between me and the person who reads it.. if anybody does.

But it takes the fear of rejection away for some reason.

I am working on this. Really . Really working on this. Taking the time to honor my story, and find peace and victory in it. It sucks. Real bad. But I think that’s where freedom and healing come .

 

When we are able to say … this is me.. all of me… good bad ugly.. gross.. happy… sad.. scary.. silly.. weirdo .. all the parts.

This particular blog is not very deep and that is okay. My point is that no matter how good bad.. painful .. happy or scared it makes us feel to share our lives and stories with people. I do know one thing to be true.

Healing comes when we are able to live life fully seen and fully known by those closest to us. 

 

So, right now, I am not there as it pertains to certain places in my life. And that is okay. I will get there. No rush. God’s timing is perfect right?

Same goes for you. My hope is that we all acknowledge where we are in life and work towards getting close to people and really living life with them. All of them.

 

 

Be encouraged friends,

Rachael