Happy New Year!
I don’t do new years resolutions, but I do like to reflect on what I think I would like the year to look like. So, here are a few goals I have.
1. To live more openly and honestly in my relationships
I touched on this in a previous blog, but I want to spend this year practicing transparency in a healthy life-giving way. I feel like this is vague, so let me attempt to be more specific. I don’t do vulnerability well. I am okay with people being open and honest about their lives and struggles, but when I am in the hot seat, I shut down. So, I want to practice leaning in to vulnerability this year. The Lord taught me last year that I have amazing friends who love me and see me, but they see me to the degree I allow them to. So, I want to let my walls down more. I think I have a better understanding of what that looks like in a healthy way now, and I want to walk that out.
2. To better understand and live a life of equanimity
In learning about mindfulness and incorporating it into my life, there is a concept that I have become fascinated with. What is it you ask? Yes, its equanimity. So , dictionary.com defines it as mental or emotional stability or composure, especially under tension or strain; calmness; equilibrium. I love this. Seriously, learning about this, and learning that it is possible to be at peace no matter what situation arises , or what anybody thinks about you, or even more so, what you think other people think about you , is one of the main reasons I have bought into the practice of mindfulness . Its something I long for, and believe I am making progress in, but it’s not where I would like it to be. But also, I also don’t know that I have a healthy awareness of what it “should’ look like yet. All I know, is I want to be internally stable and calm in any situation. So, I feel the need to add here, that peace is something attainable and taught in christianity, but for some reason, presented in this way , this notion is something I am able to better understand and grab a hold of in the form of mindfulness. I don’t know how to explain it, nor do I necessarily think there is a difference. I don’t know if that makes sense, but it does to me. So that’s good enough.
3. To continue to push myself to a higher standard and calling.
This one comes from a place of not having a healthy awareness of what I can realistically achieve. In the past, it has been either extremely unattainable, or setting the bar extremely low for myself and not expecting much out of myself. So, this year, I want to strive for better, for my best and not settle for mediocre or less than excellent. I think the kicker here is understanding that my best changes based on each situation and it is not perfection. But I want to do my best, and continue to love myself and others .
What are some goals you have?
Be encouraged friends
Rachael
Accepting The Peace 