October 8th 2016. I have felt peace about this date for a good while now. But we are nearing the actual day, and that is changing. I am experiencing anxiety, worry, and doubting my entire career choice. Intense. I know.
“What were you thinking, You don’t know what you’re doing.”
“You just got lucky in all your classes, you don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“You’re going to fail, and all your hard work will be for nothing.”
These are just a few thoughts hanging out in my head right now. Do I know , rationally, that they are not true? Yes. But that does not change that they are there. And that I am experiencing quite a bit of anxiety for the coming days.
A week from today, as I am writing this blog, I will be taking the CPCE. The comprehensive exam that will determine if what I learned the past three years of my life has stuck. This test determines whether or not my desire to be a counselor can continue. No pressure. I have been studying my brains out. But the thing is, I have felt the Lords hand on my desire to be a counselor since I was small. I tell you this not to give myself credit, but to support the fact that when the Lord places a calling on your life, he will see it through. Though I have been experiencing a lot more anxiety the past few weeks than I would like to admit, or experience. It does not change that it is there. However, the fact that it is there does not mean that my thoughts are true or that I should act on what I am feeling. If I did act on what I was feeling, I would throw essentially 6 years of my life, my hard work, out the window, and what good would that do? I have been focusing on these scriptures to ease my anxiety. I hope they find you peace as well.
And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.- Phill. 1:6
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11
So, while I still am anxious. I know that the Lord has done a good work in me. A new thing. And he is preparing me for the calling he has placed on my life. I will be faithful in studying, and have faith that he will come in and cover my weaknesses. I would appreciate the prayer.
Be encouraged friends
Rachael
Accepting The Peace 