So I am just going to be super forward and tell you that I struggle with letting people in. Specifically, over to my house. My house has become my “safety net.” I am most comfortable when I am home, by myself, with a blanket, my dog, probably coffee and a book or tv or computer. Sounds lovely. Seriously.
I told you in a previous blog that I believed this year is a year of learning to be open. See, I am just fine going to 0ther people’s houses, letting other people drive , giving other people control. Or so I think.
I am coming to realize that the control that I believe I am giving to other people is really me trying to control a situation so that I am not fully seen . AHHHH right.. I just said that and am trying super hard not to go back and erase all of this. shoot. okay.. moving on.
God has really pressed upon my heart about learning how to be known, and what being safely open and honest looks like. And what I am beginning to see is that it all has to do with trusting my gut ( and by that I mean Holy Spirit Nudge) and really understanding and learning how to walk when he says walk, talk when he says talk, and sit still and listen when he says sit still and listen. Because here is the thing: We find ourselves in the most painful times when we have not walked under the leading , or stepped before God said move. On our own strength.
So my encouragement to you, and myself, Is to really spend the week re connecting to the voice of the Lord. What are you doing that he wants you to be doing?
What are you doing that he wants you to Stop doing?
Be encouraged friends
Rachael
